Still

Just sit here for the longest time day listen to the win and listen to the birds I even listen to some old rock and roll but most of all I just listened to the thoughts in my mind I have a friend today he's sleeping he's slipping away the family all met this morning stood around his hospital bed I'm sure sobbed and cried and told him how much they would miss him probably stroked her hands across his hair squeezed his hand put their hands on their shoulder maybe cuddles his arms and shoulders and a hug a final goodbye then the medical people came in and they turned all the machines off they all stood there and looked I'm sure just watching watching him slip slip away but he hasn't yet you still holding on we all prepared ourselves today for his gone but he still here still hanging on that last thread not stepping over and all the rest of us are hanging to you can't start the grieving process because he still alive you just really just don't know what to think standing in the still waiting from that phone call one of our other friends will say Scott past they proposed a maybe this is just a joke maybe he'll just jump up sometime tonight and go haha I told you guys I guess in a way to handle the grief I just stand in the still listening to the owls saying they're very quiet song watching the horses graze in the puppies play and the two cats in the yard it just makes me remember that about 25 30 years ago when it was all our house we just enjoyed ourself money for a six pack or to get into the club a couple of cigarettes in a half a tank of gas and everything was good Friday and Saturday night was good long before the world dated all of us tortoises wasn't there made us think about things like mortgages and car payments and investments in our children and getting them to fly the right way and making sure that they didn't grow up to be around people that we don't want them to be becomes thinking about it we are probably the people that people's parents warned them about all the kids grow up well most everyone's happy but no Scott leaving sometime today or tomorrow or maybe not at all but I'll just stand here in the still listening to the All watching the horses graze in the puppies play in the two cats in the yard and remember those days those days long ago when Terranova with all our house love you Scott going to miss you dearly make a way for all of us will see you soon in 5 or 10 or 20 or 30 years keep it new and go where no man has gone before really love you miss you thank you for being my friend