Well we are in gear head mod. The new.smartphone came in today. The HCT THURDERBOLT. Love it as soon as I learn.how to work it. It is crazy this phone does everything
Friday, June 17, 2011
just at time life can suck
so has this been the best week of life or worst. not one or the other. it just sucked. but i do know this week i am sick of ass hole types that only look to their needs and just forget that other are around. or childlike adults who want to play like they are someone when know cares. well that has been that week. yes i did get up this morning and started the day by telling trash to get off my property. some people. they should just go on down the road.
then i had to go down to town which did not make me happy. as for the job today, i work for myself so i took the day off. and plan to be put of pocket for the rest of the weekend. no calls no emails no text. i am going to do some work to get my self closer to saying goodby.
this is just a place to put it all out of my head. wish i was anywhere then here. just want to run and go to a time when things were just fun. that has been so long ago. i dont remember when i really had just old fum. it seems like there is always something that has to be done and then when i look back not a thing has been completed.
did i say that i hate ass hole because if i did not a need to make that known. i believe that people who are here assholes that when thay were kids people knew they were asshole. i believe it is somethng that we are born with. someone would say that it take time. no it only takes time to learn how to be a real good asshole.
i like how you can work on something so hard just to see assholes trash your work and hurt there own dum ass. well that has been my week also. i just dont have it in me to do anything on the project now. wish i could walk away but if i do that one person i know will be without a job and i can not do that to her. so i will take this to a point where that person can start making money and then i will be out. that person should beable to handle it and if they can not then well it is not my problem.
oh and did i say that one person i know is a real asshole. well if i did not i will say that one person i know is a real asshole.
then i had to go down to town which did not make me happy. as for the job today, i work for myself so i took the day off. and plan to be put of pocket for the rest of the weekend. no calls no emails no text. i am going to do some work to get my self closer to saying goodby.
this is just a place to put it all out of my head. wish i was anywhere then here. just want to run and go to a time when things were just fun. that has been so long ago. i dont remember when i really had just old fum. it seems like there is always something that has to be done and then when i look back not a thing has been completed.
did i say that i hate ass hole because if i did not a need to make that known. i believe that people who are here assholes that when thay were kids people knew they were asshole. i believe it is somethng that we are born with. someone would say that it take time. no it only takes time to learn how to be a real good asshole.
i like how you can work on something so hard just to see assholes trash your work and hurt there own dum ass. well that has been my week also. i just dont have it in me to do anything on the project now. wish i could walk away but if i do that one person i know will be without a job and i can not do that to her. so i will take this to a point where that person can start making money and then i will be out. that person should beable to handle it and if they can not then well it is not my problem.
oh and did i say that one person i know is a real asshole. well if i did not i will say that one person i know is a real asshole.
Monday, February 21, 2011
after the fact on the way back
it has been along year. many changes and evals on what life really means. we really don't stop to think about this until we are forced. well i was forced and glad that it happen. now i set here writing this when i should be a sleep. have class in the morning and work to complete for one of my contracts, but yet not a sleep. i started thinking about this past year. when it is dark and it is quite one does think ... i do. cancer free for now, look how i put that. FOR NOW it run in your mind when will it come back and where and how bad. but you can not live like that it makes you crazy and trust me i don't need that. so then you ask your self what has changed. as i look around me right now it all look pretty normal. my desk is full of papers, charts, work for my contracts, notes of task that must be done set up in the levels of how they will bug me (that is my way), two cups of coffee a smoke in the ash tray, and all of my puppies like my family asleep. i have made my nightly call to my pop, mike help me over the cell phone with my ECO homework and exam per up and jim is out like a light and i had my weekly let's bitch talk with melinda this morning and i will have to get up in just a few hours for class and work. and here i set writing this asking the question what has changes. from those above statements you think nothing. it all seem like the before time. the time when this was not an issues in my life. hell i need has an issues until now. guess i am just like other people after all. that was just a joke. there is even a old black and white move on with Pat O'Neil and Ronnie HOW COOL IS THAT.but yet things have changed. i have changed. no time can be wasted any more. no one in my life can be taken for granted anymore, and sometime it is about the other person. i struggle with the fact if i will ever be what i call 100% maybe i will and maybe i will not. i have to pace myself. slow down PLEASE something that i have not ever done in my life. now i have to take a nap (right now it seems to happen in my business law class) and have to watch my daily activities (like wanting to do everything RIGHT NOW) to make sure i don't wipe my self out. this is not so bad (really does suck to have to changes your ways after 50 years). but i do have fear at time i will not get all done. then i ask myself get what done? well who knows. i am lucky it could have been real bad. just heard a story (they are great at the cancer center to tell really suck story about people dropping dead) the other day during one of my many after care test and follow up that this women found out she had breast cancer and she just died. dam. i have been very lite about it all on the outside but 4 people (jim mike melinda pop) knew the fear.
so this is what has changed. i was not brave i had fear and my friends and father knew that. they were there when i thought i would brake and help me stay off depression (jim knew this side). they were there to let me know that it would be OK (pop). they held me listen to me and made me understand that we ( yes mike I know you just I) would get pass it. so what the rest of you saw was what they give me. they are the ones who were brave not me.
what is changed is that i know my friends and father love me and that makes all the different in the world. it is the healing power friends, a parent, and my jimmy
thank you all for my life. i would say i owe you one but all of you know IT IS ALL ABOUT ME (right melinda)
Sunday, February 20, 2011
Time for sleep
He sleep I seek has gone down to the no pep.
No thought no sight just long long nite
Where my sleep
Sent from my Verizon Wireless BlackBerry
No thought no sight just long long nite
Where my sleep
Sent from my Verizon Wireless BlackBerry
Saturday, February 19, 2011
Monday, February 14, 2011
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